_cc781905-5cde-3194-bb3b-cc155d5b58Hertis_3194-bb3b-cc155d5bad9Igama lami 355d1bb8 Hertis_3194-bb3b-cc155d5bad9 Ngingumuntu olula onomusa, onakekelayo, omnandi, futhi olungile nxazonke. Nokho, uhambo lwami belunzima kakhulu njengoba ngine-autism. Nokho, kuyicala elincane nje. I-autism yami ibizwa ngokuthi, “Asperger’s Syndrome,” abantu abebelokhu belwazi kakhulu lolu hlobo lwe-autism kusukela ekuqaleni kuka-2017.
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       I have also had the opportunity to go to the 2018 Special Olympics USA games neTeam Missouri njengombhukudi. Bekumnandi futhi kumatasatasa empilweni yakho yonke. Ngenze abangane abakhulu, engingabiza ngabo iTeam Missouri njengomndeni wonke. Ngibe nabantu abaningi abakwazi ukungisekela, bangisize, futhi basebenze nami ekuhleleni, okusize ukwenza lokhu kwenzeke. Ngisho nabanye bomndeni wami baye bahamba bazongibona ngibhukuda, yonke indlela esuka eMissouri. Kuyoba yinto engingasoze ngayikhohlwa.
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       I will also be an inventor soon, as my uncle is helping me finance engikusungulile. Sengikutholile ukuphawula okuhle nokuqinisekisa ukuthi kungashintsha umhlaba wonke ngonjiniyela abathembekile abangeke bangixake. (ISEXWAYISO: lokhu kubanjisiwe okwamanje)
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    _cc781905-5cde-3194-bb3b-cc558d58life-happy-life-3194-bb3b-cc75d58bad-386bad9-life-3181905-3194-bb3b-cc57d58bad9-impilo eside Ngabe angikho namhlanje ukube bekungeyena ugogo owangithatha ngineminyaka emihlanu wangikhulisa. Akukhona lokho kuphela, kodwa ngingathola i-bossy, iqholo, ingxabano, futhi ngicasulwe ngezinye izikhathi ngenxa yalolu hlobo lwe-autism. Nokho, akukhona lokho kuphela enginakho okwenze kwaba nzima njengoba bekunjalo. Ngine-OCD, ADHD, ADD, Learning Disorder, Attachment Disorder, Anger Management, nezinye engingazikhumbuli okwamanje. Kusukela ngineminyaka engu-5, bekuyinselele enkulu ukuhambisana nakho konke nawo wonke umuntu.
 
    _cc781905-5cde-3194-bb3b-158 medlula konke lokho, Nokho, kwakudlule konke lokho. Mina namuhla ngifundile ukuthi ngingacasuki kangako, ngifunde ukuthi ngingabi yi-OCD, Ukunamathisela hhayi kakhulu, Intukuthelo AYISEYONA inkinga. Kodwa ezinye izingxenye zayo ngizithuthukisile, ezinye cishe ngizoba nazo impilo yami yonke. Ngiphinde ngafunda ukuzivumelanisa ne-Borg, angiyazi leyo nkomba, buka i-Star Trek. Eqinisweni kuwumzabalazo wempilo yangempela yansuku zonke, kodwa ngincikile, ngiyazivumelanisa nezimo, futhi ngiba ngcono jikelele. Honestly, unkulunkulu ube nami engihola iminyaka engaphezu kuka-17 kusukela ngo-2023 futhi konke enginakho kube ngomusa kankulunkulu. Ngike ngaba nezinto ezinhle ezenzeka empilweni yami, yebo, kodwa ingxenye enkulu, kuye kwadingeka ngithembele kunkulunkulu ukuthi angiqondise naphezu kobubi obukhulu empilweni yami. Ngiqonde ukuthini, kusukela ngoJuni 2022, ngathuthela e-Columbia MO futhi ngokushesha nje lapho ngithutha ngangivele ngicasule abantu abathile hhayi nje endaweni engihlala kuyo kodwa nasesontweni. Isibonelo nje, kusukela ngoFebhuwari 2023, esontweni kukhona le ntombazane engithe ngiyithandile ezinyangeni ezimbalwa ezedlule kwividiyo eqondiswe kubalandeli bami bezincwadi hhayi kuyo. Ngabe ngabelana naye, yebo, futhi ngamenza wangakhululeka. Ingabe bekuwukukhetha okungalungile kwamagama, heck yebo. Ingabe ingaxazululeka uma sikuxoxile, heck yebo, kodwa uma sikhuluma iqiniso, kuyinkinga kuzo zombili izingxenye zethu? Washo ngokuqondile ukuthi ungamthumeli umlayezo futhi, futhi ngahlehla ngokuphelele ngenxa yezinkumbulo ezimbi phakathi kwami nowayekade engishade naye, ngakho nganqamula KONKE ukuxhumana yonke indawo. Ingabe amathuba okuthi into efanayo izokwenzeka ncamashi njengoba kwenzeka phakathi kwami no-ex wami, amathuba okuthi, cha, kodwa bengingeke ngifake engozini. Kuye nakwabanye, cishe kubukeka sengathi ngizama ukumgwema, kodwa lokho akunakuba kude neqiniso. Ubeke imithetho eyisisekelo ngakho-ke ibhola lisenkundleni yakhe uma efuna ukuqhubeka nokuxoxa, ngakho ngenza konke okusemandleni ami ukufeza izifiso zakhe. Ngobuqotho, cishe washo lokho ukuba ngikhulume naye mathupha, njengoba umfundisi nabantu abambalwa bathi kufanele ngenze. Kodwa-ke, ngokusekelwe esikhathini esibi KAKHULU KAKHULU empilweni yami, noma yimuphi umzamo wokufinyelela ohlangothini lwami lwezinto unginika izinkumbulo ezibuhlungu njengoba zisanda kwenzeka emahoreni adlule, ngakho-ke angikwazi ukubeka engcupheni ngokwenza izinto zibe zimbi kakhulu. Akusho ukuthi ngeke akwazi ukuza kimi azokhuluma nami, nokho-ke, ngingakuthembisa ukuthi ukwenza kanjalo kuzongicindezela futhi kube nalezo zenzakalo ezimbi eziphindaphindwayo engqondweni yami. Ingabe kungangethusa, yebo, ngokungangabazeki. Nokho, uyena owayezoza kimi, ngakho njengomKristu kuwumsebenzi wami okungenani ukubopha izibopho futhi ngingavumeli lokho okuhlangenwe nakho kungalungisi noma yini engalungiswa uma kukhona. Eqinisweni, angilindele ukuthi afike akhulume nami futhi uma kwenzeka, kuzokwenzeka ngomusa kankulunkulu ngesikhathi sikankulunkulu. Ekupheleni kosuku, uNkulunkulu angalungisa konke ngesikhathi. Lokhu kukodwa nje kwemizabalazo eyodwa engibhekene nayo njengamanje ngoFebhuwari 2023, kodwa ngethemba ukuthi okungenani ikunikeza isibonelo salokho engikwenzayo nokuthi kungani ngikwenza. Nokho, selokhu ngaba se-Columbia kusukela ngoJuni 2022, nginabangane abaningi kunangaphambili. Nganginabangane abangu-3 ngesikhathi ngisafunda kanye nomngane oyedwa ngemva kweqiniso, ngakho-ke angikaze ngibe umfana onabangane abaningi futhi kusukela ngithuthile, kube nokuningi okuhle engikholelwa ukuthi kwanikezwa ngomusa kankulunkulu, kodwa nakho konke okungalungile ebenginakho empilweni yami, ngizama ukungazihlanganisi ebudlelwaneni, noma eqenjini, noma yini ngempela hhayi ngisho nabangane ngoba ngizwa sengathi uma ngicwayiza okungalungile, kungaphela konke.
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       Furthermore, I have my OCD limited to organizing and cleaning, nothing else. Ngithuthukise kakhulu ukulawula kwami kuzimpawu ze-ADD & ADHD yami. Ukukhubazeka kwami ekufundeni cishe akusekho kwezinye izindawo, futhi kwezinye izindawo eziningi akuseyona inkinga. Abaphathi bentukuthelo yami, ake ngibeke kanje, ngisemncane, ngangichitha izinto lapho ngithukuthele ngaphandle kokungabaza. Manje, lapho ngithukuthela, ngokuvamile ngiyakwazi ukuzibamba ukuze ngingaphuli lutho noma ngihlanye ngempela. Ezimweni eziningi, manje senginakho engikuthanda ukukubiza ngamazinga ayi-10 okucasuka ngaphambi kokuthi ngithukuthele. Ukuphazamiseka kwami kokunamathiselwe akusekho. Eqinisweni, ngithuthukise ifilosofi, “Uma ungangithandi, ngikufice”, eyasungulwa ngenxa yesimo esenzeka esikoleni samabanga aphansi naphezulu. Ngokuqondene ne-ADD & ADHD yami, ngisathola i-hyper, yebo, kodwa hhayi kangako. Uma kuphuzile nomndeni udlala imidlalo ngamaholide, ngivame ukuphuza i-soda ukuze ngikhulule ingcindezi. Nokho, lokhu kungenza ngihleke kakhulu kangangokuthi phakathi kwamabili noma kamuva, ngigcina ngigula, uma uqonda ukuthi ngiqonde ukuthini ngalokho. Ngihambe ibanga elide kusukela ezinsukwini zesikole. Uma kukhona ecabanga ukuthi angikaze, angakwazi ukubhekana no-Andrew Eckman, owayengakholwa ukuthi ngishintshe kangakanani selokhu agcina ukungibona, okwakungokwethweswa iziqu ngokoqobo ngo-2007.
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    _cc781905-5cde-3194-bb3b-cc5558d9 kancane, cf55dbad5, 3194-bb3b-cc5558bad9 little, cf55dbad9, 3194-bb3b-cc55dbad9 kancane Ngale autism, amakhono okuxhumana ayinkinga yangempela. Kuleli qophelo, angikholwa ukuthi ngiyoke ngilususe lolu daba futhi ngihlale nalo kuze kube usuku engifa ngalo, futhi ngithemba ukuthi ngeke ngife ngize ngiguge. Nokho, uma bengingase ngihambe ngaphambi kokuguga, ngingathanda ukufa engozini yemoto evuthayo, ukuze okungenani ngiphume ngesidumo, LOL. Njengoba uhlelo lwe-TV oluthi “The Big Bang Theory” lusho esingenisweni salo, “Konke kwaqala ngokuqhuma okukhulu.” Endabeni yami, uma ngiphuma ngaphambi kokuguga, nanka ukuphawula kwami, “Konke kuphele ngokuqhuma okukhulu,” LMBO. Kulabo abangaziyo, i-LMBO ithi “Ngihleke kancane”.
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    _cc781905-5cde-3194-bb3b-cc55kec5d58bad_cook-3194-bb3b-cc55kec5d58bad_358d58bad9 Ngenza ikhekhe le-Oreo elicebile noma elicebe kakhulu kunekhekhe likashokoledi laseJalimane. Ngaphezu kwalokho, ngiyibiza nge-White Chocolate Double Stuffed Coconut Oreo Cake. Ngaphandle kwalokho, ngenza futhi iresiphi eyenziwe kusukela ekuqaleni ngaphandle kweresiphi yenkukhu ye-Bacon Cheese Quesadilla. Ngineresiphi yokuzenzela yamazambane athosiwe eyenziwe ngokuphelele kusukela ekuqaleni kwekhanda lami ngaphandle kweresiphi ye-prier. Ungabuza umalume wami uCarl kanye nomzala wami uJulia futhi ungafakazela ukuthi ibingekho ngempela iresiphi.  Engakwenza nje ukubheka ekhabetheni lezinongo imizuzu eyi-10, ngikhethe izithako ezingahleliwe futhi ngiqedele ndawonye ngomsebenzi wokuqagela ophelele ongu-100%. Umalume uthe ziyamangalisa impela. Ukube angizange ngithole i-associate degree ekulungiseni amakhompyutha, ngabe ngaba umpheki.
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   _cc781905-5cde-3194-bb3b-138 uchungechunge lolo Icf ukuze ubhale uchungechunge lwe-Icf ukuze ubhale i-5. Kodwa-ke, angiyena mkhulu kangako olimini futhi angikaze ngibe nezibalo, ungakhohlwa, LMBO. Angikwenzeli udumo. Ngikwenzela mina, ngakho ngingathi, “Yebo, ngikwenzile lokhu.” Ngiyabanyanya abantu abadla izambane likapondo nabadumile abaphenduka izixhwanguxhwangu bakhathalele imali nezinwele zabo kuphela hhayi umuntu ojwayelekile. Abahlale bethembekile kubo ngoba bavumela imali yabo ibashintshe. Yingakho ngizohlala ngithembekile ezimisweni zami uma ngiceba futhi ngidume, kungakhathaliseki ukuthi kwenzekani. Ngizikhumbuza nsuku zonke ukuthi ngazenzela lokhu. Ngikubuka ngale ndlela:
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       “When I started writing, I was not the best person with language amakhono, imoto kanokusho, imali, nanoma yini enye enenani. Angikaze ngiphuphe ngisho nokuba umlobi “othengisa Kakhulu”. Ngiphila impilo yami nje, ngedwa endlini enekamelo elilodwa, umsebenzi wetoho ophansi, futhi ngikhokha izinkokhelo zami emphakathini, kodwa ngikwenze lokhu ngaphandle kosizo lomndeni, abangani, noma izikhulu zikahulumeni ezifana nezisebenzi zecala. Usizo kuphela enganginalo kwakuwukuthola incwadi yami yokuqala ihlelwe ngokomsebenzi umhleli ozimele. Ukuqala uhambo lwami, ngabhala isiqephu, indaba, nakho konke mayelana nencwadi nochungechunge lwayo; Ngibhale lonke leli khasi lewebhu, amathuluzi, izembozo, kanye nekhasi lami le-Facebook ochungechungeni lwami. Yonke into oyibonayo i-kahle, ngicabanga ukuthi ungasho ukuthi isithombe sami, njengoba ngikwenze konke. Noma ngingacebi futhi ngidume ngochungechunge, okungenani ngiye ngithi ngakwenza lokhu, futhi ngiyaziqhenya ngokufeza enginakho, ikakhulukazi uma ngibheka izinselelo engibe nazo.”

       “I will continue to write because that is what I love, and Ngeke ngiyeke ukuzama ukuba ngumbhali oqeqeshiwe (kusukela ngomhla ka-8 Disemba 2017- okwamanje). Naphezu kwazo zonke izinselelo engibe nazo nengisazoqhubeka nginazo. Uma ekugcineni bengiyizincwadi zami nezincwadi zami kuphela, okungenani ngizojabula ukuba yimi futhi ngihlale ngithembekile kimina.”
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        That is something I will carry with me forever because it is something that Ngicabanga ukuthi abantu abaningi bebengaphupha nje: ukuthola injabulo ngaphandle kokukhathalela imali noma udumo. Abanye abantu bafuna kokubili, noma okukodwa noma okunye. Ngithi, ubani owenza i-crap? Ocebile, odumile, noma cha, okungenani ngizoba yimi futhi ngihlale ngoba angithandi ukuba ngumuntu engingeyena, futhi ngombono wami, ukuzama ukuba umuntu ongeyena "i-delusion" yekilasi A. Ngiyazi; Bengilokhu ngiphansi kuleyo ndlela yokuzama ukuzishintsha ukuze othile azame ukumenza angithande ngaphezu komngane. Lelo kwaba iphutha elikhulu kunawo wonke engalenza ekuphileni kwami. Ngiyazisola nsuku zonke futhi ngiyazindla ukuthi ngabe kwenzekani ukube angizange ngihambe ngaleyo ndlela. Ngisalokhu ngizindla ngakho kuze kube manje lapha nalaphaya, kodwa angisakuvumeli ukuba kuthonye isipho sami. Ngaphezu kwalokho, ngike ngaba nobudlelwano obune kuphela. Ukwengeza, angikakamtholi olungile futhi ngisamlindile. Angazi ngawe, kodwa ngikholelwa endleleni yakudala. Ngincamela ukuba umngani nomuntu ukuze ngithuthukise ukuxhumana komuntu nomuntu, hhayi lokhu ukuthola nje intombi. Ngaphezu kwalokho, nginezindinganiso eziphakeme kakhulu ukuba ngizicabangele. Konke lokhu kuqala ngokuba abangani kuqala, ngibone ukuthi unkulunkulu uzonginika yini, nentombazane engase ngibe nentshisekelo yokujola ngaleso sikhathi, isibusiso sakhe ukwenza kanjalo njengoba izinto zenzeka ngesikhathi sikankulunkulu hhayi ngesikhathi sami. Ingxenye edabukisayo ukuthi, cishe ngeke yenzeke, kodwa i-hop isekhona, noma iqulekile okwamanje, futhi ngokungananazi, ngilungile kulokho, okwamanje okungenani. Kuze kube yilapho ngihlangana naye, ngizoqhubeka nokuzithuthukisa futhi ngiqhubeke ngizama ukuba MINA ongcono kakhulu engingaba yikho ngoba yilokho kuphela engingakwenza.

       As for a girlfriend, for those that want to know.Kusukela ngomhlaka-18 February 2018, angishadile futhi ngimelene kakhulu nokuqomisana ngaphandle uma unkulunkulu ebona okuhlukile. Mina, angibheki noma ngiphuma endleleni yami ukuze ngithole eyodwa. Uma kwenzeka intombi, kwenzeka ngomusa kankulunkulu hhayi kancane. Ngemuva kokuthi i-ex yami ingahle iphule inhliziyo yami echithe amaviki ama-2 enza i-handmade isithombe sevidiyo yombukiso wesilayidi yoSuku Lwezithandani ngoba ubungenayo imali yokumthengela oshokoledi kanye/noma ama roses, futhi uphula inhliziyo yakho ezinsukwini ezi-4 ngemva kweholide, awunantshisekelo kangako yokuqomisana. Futhi uma lokho kwakungemnandi ekhekheni, wangiyisa enkantolo mayelana nezinto ezingqubuzana ngokoqobo nesimilo sami kanye nomnyombo wokuthi ngingubani umndeni nabangane abaziyo akumina. Ngezindlela ezingenakubalwa, ngiyamzonda, ngeke ngiqambe amanga, futhi ngiyazi ukuthi akunjaloy NjengomKristu, kodwa ngezindlela eziningi, ezifana nalesi sigameko esenzeke esontweni nale ntombazane, okungenani singivimbe enkingeni ebingase yonakale kakhulu. Ingabe kungenzeka ukuthi lokho kuphakeme ngokwanele ukuba kwenzeke futhi ngendlela efanayo naleyo eyenzeka phakathi kwami no-ex wami, cha, hhayi nakancane. Ingabe kwaba ukusabela kwamadolo nentombazane yasesontweni ukuze inqamule konke ukuxhumana, ngokuphelele, kodwa okungenani azikho izinkinga eziqhubekayo kanye nezinsolo ezindizayo mayelana nendaba eqhubekayo e-limbo engenza ngibe namantongomane ngoba angikwazi lungisani ngoba ngokwezobuchwepheshe ukuhamba kwakhe ngomusa kankulunkulu. Ukuthi siba abangani kamuva kuncike kunkulunkulu, ngizojabula nje ukuthi ngizoba nokunye ukuhlehla emahlombe ami okuxazululiwe.

        In recent news, as of February 20, 2023,Ngizibuyisela esikoleni ngokusemthethweni. Kukhona isivumelwano esihle kakhulu ezincwadini eziyi-13 ze-Humble Bundle ezibandakanya i-Unreal Engine 5. Yebo, uyaqagela, ngizobe ngizifundisa ukwenza imidlalo ye-PC. Nginalo mdlalo engifuna ukuwenza, umsebenzi omkhulu futhi ngiyazi ukuthi ngizoqala kuphi, kodwa yize ngizifundise i-Unreal Engine, ngidinga amakhono angcono ukuze kwenzeke. Ngamafuphi, umdlalo we-Massive Multi player ukuletha zonke izici zempilo emdlalweni. Isibonelo, uma ufuna ukwenza isimemezelo seNkululeko futhi uphathe indikimba ebusayo njengasempilweni yangempela, lapho-ke ungaba umongameli ngokoqobo ngemva kokuthuthuka iminyaka kusukela ekuqaleni njenge-caveman/owesifazane. Igeyimu ehloselwe ukutshela impilo yeplanethi yomhlaba ngenkathi iletha cishe zonke izinhlobo zegeyimu kugeyimu eyodwa. Esisekelweni sayo kungaba ukulingisa kodwa ngezinto ezifana neSim City mechanics, Farming Simulator mechanics, Flight Simulator mechanics, The Sims, ngisho nohlelo lwasemkhathini oluphelele olufana no-EVE kanye Nonjiniyela Bomkhathi abanomakhenikha bocwaningo abavela ohlelweni lwesikhala lwe-Kerbal kanye nekhono lokwenza. empeleni dweba umkhumbi wakho kanye/noma usekele ngendlela ofisa ngayo, kuze kufike endleleni amaphaseji abekwe ngayo. Uma ungakucabanga, ungayakha, kanye nezinye izibonelo EZININGI njengoba ZININGI kakhulu ukubala futhi uzisho. Yindawo lapho ungaba yinoma ubani ofuna ukuba yikho kanye nomhlaba lapho ongadlala khona nabangani, noma uwedwa ngohlelo olugcwele lwe-AI. Noma ucabanga ukuyenza ngale ndlela, ungathola imali YANGEMPELA ngokudlala umdlalo njengemidlalo embalwa ekhona esivele inalesi sici, njenge-Entropia Universe nezinye ezimbalwa. Uma uhlelo lwami lusebenza ngendlela engifuna ukulwenza ngayo, luzoshintsha yonke imboni yemidlalo njengoba siwazi ngoba kuzoba umdlalo OKUNINGI kuwo futhi ungenza noma yini ofuna ukuyenza okungadingeka ukuthi kube nesigaba esisha. isungulwe NJE ukuze ikwazi ukusingatha le phrojekthi enkulukazi.

Igama lalo mdlalo ngokwezwi nezwi libizwa ngokuthi, “Iphrojekthi: Impilo Yamaphupho” enesiqubulo esithi, “Uma ukwazi ukuyiphupha, kwenze, njengoba amaphupho efezeka. Amaphupho ayenzeka uma uwenza enzeke. Amaphupho yiwona owenza ngawo.” Igama Lomdlalo: I-Copyright 2023 - Yamanje