_cc781905-5cde-3194-bb3b-cc155d1bb5 Herrtis-358d58Hyb35358358 Herrtis-3194-bb3b-cc158d1bb59Igama le-3194-bb3b-cc158d1bb8 Ndingumntu olula onobubele, okhathalayo, omnandi, kunye nomfo omkhulu. Nangona kunjalo, uhambo lwam belunzima kakhulu njengoko ndine-autism. Nangona kunjalo, yimeko nje encinci. Uluphazamiseko lwam lubizwa ngokuba, “I-Asperger’s Syndrome,” abantu ebebelwazi ngakumbi olu hlobo loluphazamiseko ekuqaleni kuka-2017.
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       I have also had the opportunity to go to the 2018 Special Olympics USA games kunye neQela laseMissouri njengendadi. Kwakumnandi kwaye kuxakeke kakhulu ubomi bonke. Ndenze abahlobo abakhulu, endinokuthi ngabo ndibize iQela laseMissouri njengosapho luphela. Ndibe nabantu abaninzi abakwaziyo ukundixhasa, bandincede, kwaye basebenze kunye nam ekucwangciseni, oko kuye kwanceda ukwenza oku. Nokuba abanye bosapho lwam baye bandibona ndiqubha, yonke indlela ukusuka eMissouri. Iya kuba ngamava endingasoze ndiwalibale.
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_ct781905-5-5-5- I-3194-BB3B-136BADD58B3BD58BD58B3b imveliso yam. Sele ndifumene amagqabantshintshi alungileyo kunye nokuqinisekisa ukuba inokutshintsha ilizwe liphela ziinjineli ezithembekileyo ezingazukundiqweqwedisa. (ISILUMKISO: oku kumisiwe okwangoku)
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    _cc781905-5cde-3194-bb3b-cc781905-5cde-3194-bb3b-136bad5cf58d_ _cc781905-5cde-3194-bb3b-cc5558harv58bad-ubomi aff158bad9bad3-ubomi acf158bad9bad_long. Ngendingekho namhlanje ukuba ibingekho umakhulu owandithatha ndisena 5years wandikhulisa. Ayisiyiyo loo nto kuphela, kodwa ndiyakwazi ukufumana i-bossy, ikratshi, ingxabano, kwaye ndicaphuke ngamanye amaxesha ngenxa yolu hlobo lwe-autism. Nangona kunjalo, asiyiyo yonke into endinayo eyenze ukuba kube nzima njengoko bekunjalo. Ndine-OCD, i-ADHD, i-ADD, ukukhubazeka kokuFunda, i-Atachment Disorder, uLawulo loMsindo, kunye nezinye endingazikhumbuli ngoku. Ukusukela ekubeni ndandineminyaka emi-5, kuye kwaba ngumngeni omkhulu ukugcina yonke into kunye nomntu wonke.
 
    _cc781905-5cde-3194-bb3b-136d yonke loo nto, nangona yayidlulile yonke loo nto. Mna namhlanje ndiye ndafunda ukuba ndingacaphuki kangako, ndafunda ukuba ndingabiyi-OCD, i-Attachment hayi kakhulu, Umsindo NGOKUQINISEKILEYO AYISEKHO umcimbi kwakhona. Kodwa ezinye iindawo zayo ndiziphucule, ezinye ndiza kuba nazo ubomi bam bonke. Ndiphinde ndafunda ukuziqhelanisa neBorg, andiyazi lereferensi, jonga iStar Trek. Ngokunyaniseka ngumzabalazo wobomi bemihla ngemihla, kodwa ndiyama, ndiyaziqhelanisa, kwaye ndiya ndisiba ngcono xa ndiphelele. Ngokunyaniseka, uthixo ubenam endikhokela ngaphezu kweminyaka eyi-17 ukusukela ngo-2023 kwaye yonke into endiyiyo ibe ngobabalo lukathixo. Kukho izinto ezintle ezenzeka ebomini bam, ewe, kodwa ubukhulu becala, kuye kwafuneka ndithembele kuthixo ukuba andikhokele ngaphandle kokungakhathali okukhulu ebomini bam. Ndiyathetha heck, ukusukela ngoJuni ka-2022, ndafudukela e-Columbia MO kwaye kungekudala nje ndifudukile sele ndicaphukise abanye abantu kungekuphela nje kwindawo endihlala kuyo kodwa nasecaweni. Umzekelo, ukusukela ngoFebruwari 2023, enkonzweni kukho le ntombazana ndathi ndayithanda kwiinyanga ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo kwividiyo ejoliswe kubalandeli beencwadi zam kungekhona kuyo. Ngaba ndabelana naye, ewe, kwaye ndamenza ukuba angabi nangxaki. Ngaba ibilukhetho olungalunganga lwamagama, heck ewe. Ngaba inokusonjululwa ukuba besiyithethile, heck ewe, kodwa ngokunyanisekileyo, yingxaki kumacala ethu omabini? Uye wathi ungamthumeleli umyalezo kwakhona, kwaye ndiye ndabuya umva ngokupheleleyo ngenxa yeenkumbulo ezimbi phakathi kwam kunye nam, kwaye ke ndiye ndaluqhawula LONKE unxibelelwano kuyo yonke indawo. Ngaba izinto ezingathandekiyo ziya kwenzeka kanye njengoko kwenzekayo phakathi kwam kunye nam, amathuba okuba, hayi, kodwa andizukuyibeka emngciphekweni. Kuye nakwabanye, kukhangeleka ngathi ndiza kwenza konke okusemandleni am ukumphepha, kodwa oko akunakuba kude enyanisweni. Ubeke imithetho esisiseko kwaye ibhola ibe senkundleni yakhe ukuba ufuna ukuphinda ancokole, ke ndenza konke okusemandleni am ukuthobela iminqweno yakhe. Xa enyanisekile, kusenokwenzeka ukuba watsho ukuba ndithethe naye ngokobuqu, njengoko umfundisi nabanye abantu abaninzi bathi ndifanele ndenze njalo. Nangona kunjalo, ngokusekwe kwixesha elibi kakhulu ebomini bam, naliphi na ilinge lokufikelela kwicala lam lezinto lindinika iinkumbulo ezimanyumnyezi njengokuba zenzeke kwiiyure ezidlulileyo, kwaye ke andinakubeka emngciphekweni wokwenza izinto zibe mandundu. Ayithethi ukuba akanakuza kum athethe nam, nangona kunjalo, ndiyakuthembisa ukuba ukwenza njalo kuya kundicinezela kwaye ndibe naloo mava angalunganga aphindaphindwayo engqondweni yam. Ingandoyikisa, ewe, ngokungathandabuzekiyo. Noko ke, yayinguye owayeza kuza kum, ngoko ke njengomKristu yimbopheleleko yam ubuncinane ukubopha iqhina ndize ndingawavumeli loo mava angalungiseleli nantoni na enokulungiswa ukuba kukho nantoni na. Unyanisekile andilindelanga ukuba aze kuthetha nam kwaye ukuba uyenzile, kuya kwenzeka ngobabalo lukathixo ngexesha likathixo. Ekupheleni kosuku, uThixo unokulungisa konke ngexesha. Lo ngumnye nje wemizabalazo endiyenzayo ngoku ngoFebruwari ka-2023, kodwa ndiyathemba ukuba ikunika umzekelo wento endiyenzayo nokuba kutheni ndiyenza. Nangona kunjalo, oko bendise-Columbia ukusukela ngoJuni ka-2022, ndinabahlobo abaninzi kunokuba bendinabo. Ndandinezihlobo ezi-3 ngexesha lokufunda kwam kunye nomhlobo oyi-1 emva kwenyani, ngoko andizange ndibe ngumfana onabahlobo abaninzi kwaye oko ndifudukile, kukho okuninzi okulungileyo endikholelwa ukuba kunikwe ngobabalo lukaThixo, kodwa ngayo yonke into embi endiye ndanayo ebomini bam, ndizama ukuba ndingadityaniswa nobudlelwane, okanye iqela, okanye nantoni na eneneni hayi nokuba ngabahlobo kuba ndiziva ngathi ndiqhwanyaza nje engalunganga, ingaphela yonke.
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       Furthermore, I have my OCD limited to organizing and cleaning, nothing else. Ndiluphucule kakhulu ulawulo lwam kwiimpawu ze-ADD & ADHD yam. Ukukhubazeka kwam ekufundeni kuphantse ukuba akukho nto kwezinye iindawo, kwaye kwezinye iindawo ezininzi akuseyongxaki ingako. Ukulawula umsindo wam, mandiyibeke ngolu hlobo, ndisemncinci, ndandichitha izinto xa ndinomsindo ngaphandle kokuthandabuza. Ngoku, xa ndicaphukile, ngokuqhelekileyo ndiyakwazi ukuzibamba ukuze ndingaphuli nantoni na okanye ndide ndiphambane ngokwenene. Kwiimeko ezininzi, ngoku ndinento endithanda ukuyibiza ngamanqanaba ali-10 okucaphuka ngaphambi kokuba ndiphambane. Ingxaki yam yokuncamathela ayisekho. Enyanisweni, ndiye ndavelisa intanda-bulumko ethi, “Ukuba awundithandi, jijamelane nawe”, eyathi yaphuhliswa ngenxa yemeko eyenzeka kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo naphakamileyo. Ngokumalunga ne-ADD kunye ne-ADHD yam, ndisafumana i-hyper, ewe, kodwa hayi kangako. Ukuba lihambile ixesha kunye nosapho oludlala imidlalo ngeeholide, ndiyathanda ukusela isoda ukukhulula uxinzelelo lwam. Nangona kunjalo, oku kundibangela ukuba ndihleke kakhulu kangangokuba ezinzulwini zobusuku okanye kamva, ndiye ndigule, ukuba uyayiqonda into endiyithethayo ngaloo nto. Ndihambe indlela ende ukusukela ngeentsuku zesikolo. Ukuba kukho nabani na ocinga ukuba andinayo, banokuyithatha kunye no-Andrew Eckman, owayengakholelwa ukuba nditshintshe kangakanani ukususela oko wayegqibele ukundibona, okwakuthweswe isidanga ngo-2007.
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    _cc781905-5cde-3194-bb3b-1365dbad9 kancinci-kakhulu, cf55dbad9 little, cf5558, , , , ,,,, Ngolu luphazamiseko luthile, izakhono zonxibelelwano ziyingxaki yokwenyani. Okwangoku, andikholelwa ukuba ndiya kuze ndiwuphelise lo mbandela ndize ndibe nawo de kube ngumhla wokufa kwam, kwaye ndiyathemba ukuba andisayi kufa ndide ndibe mdala. Nangona kunjalo, ukuba bendinokuhamba ngaphambi kobudala, ndingathanda ukubhubha kwingozi yemoto, ngoko ke ndingakwazi ukuphuma ngesithonga, LOL. Njengoko umboniso weTV othi "The Big Bang Theory" uthi kwintshayelelo yabo, "Yonke le nto yaqala ngogqabhuko-dubulo olukhulu." Kwimeko yam, ukuba ndiphuma ngaphambi kobudala, nantsi inkcazo yam, "Yonke yaphela ngomsindo omkhulu," i-LMBO. Kuphela kwabo bangaziyo, i-LMBO ithi “Ndihleke impundu yam”.
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    _cc781905-5cde-3194-bb3b-cc558d58bad9-cook-3194-bb3b-cc58d58d136bad9-asIcf15d58bad9 Ndenza ikeyiki yeOreo etyebileyo okanye etyebileyo kunekeyiki yeChocolate yaseJamani. Ngaphaya koko, ndiyibiza ngokuba yiWhite Chocolate Ephindwe kabini yeCoconut Oreo Cake. Ngaphandle koko, ndenza intsingiselo eyenziwe ukusuka ekuqaleni ngaphandle kweresiphi yenkukhu yeBacon yeCheese Quesadilla. Ndineresiphi yasekhaya yeefries eyenziwe ngokupheleleyo ukusuka ekuqaleni kwentloko yam ngaphandle kweresiphi yeprier. Ungabuza umalume uCarl kunye nomzala wam uJulia kwaye unokungqina ukuba akukho ndlela yokupheka ngokoqobo.  Yonke into endiyenzileyo kukujonga kwikhabhathi yeziqholo imizuzu eli-10, ndikhethe izithako ezininzi ezingakhethiyo kwaye uzigqibe kunye. ngomsebenzi ogqibeleleyo we-100%. Umalume uthe bayamangalisa ngokupheleleyo. Ukuba andizange ndifumane isidanga somdibaniso ekulungiseni ikhompyutha, ngendibe ngumpheki.
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   _cc781905-5cde-3194-bb3b-138bad ukubhala i-Icf ukuze ibhale incwadi ye-5. Nangona kunjalo, andiyena mkhulu kulwimi kwaye andizange ndibekho kunye nezibalo, unokuyilibala, LMBO. Andiyenzeli udumo. Ndiyenzela mna, ngoko ke ndinokuthi, "Ewe, ndiyenzele." Ndiyabacekisa abantu abazizityebi nabadumileyo ababa ngamaxhwangusha abahoye imali neenwele zabo kuphela hayi umntu oqhelekileyo. Abahlali benyanisekile kubo kuba bevumela imali yabo ibatshintshe. Yiyo loo nto ndiza kuhlala ndinyanisekile kwimilinganiselo yam ukuba ndinokuba sisityebi kwaye ndidume, kungakhathaliseki ukuba yintoni na. Ndizikhumbuza yonke imihla ukuba ndizenzele le nto. Ndiyijonga ngolu hlobo:
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_ct781905-5-5-5- I-4094-BB3B-136BAD58B3BD58BD58BD58b ubuchule, imoto yodidi, imali, okanye nantoni na enexabiso. Andizange ndiphuphe nokuba ngumbhali "oThengisa ngokugqwesileyo". Ndiphila nje ubomi bam, ndindedwa kwindlu enegumbi elinye, umvuzo ophantsi womsebenzi wesingxungxo, kwaye ndibhatala iimfanelo zam eluntwini, kodwa ndikwenze oku ngaphandle koncedo losapho, abahlobo, okanye amagosa karhulumente njengabasebenzi betyala. Ekuphela koncedo endandinalo yayikukufumana incwadi yam yokuqala ihlelwe ngokobuchule ngumhleli osebenza yedwa. Ukuqala uhambo lwam, ndabhala iploti, ibali, nayo yonke into malunga nencwadi kunye nochungechunge lwayo; Ndibhale eli phepha lilonke lewebhu, izixhobo, amaqweqwe, kunye nephepha lam likaFacebook kuthotho lwam. Yonke into oyibonayo i-kakuhle, ndiyaqikelela unokuthi ngumfanekiso wam, njengoko ndikwenzile konke. Nokuba andide ndibe sisityebi ndize ndidume kolu ngcelele, ndide ndithi ndenze oku, kwaye ndiyazingca ngokuphumeza oko ndinako, ngakumbi xa ndiqwalasela imiceli mngeni ebendinayo.”

_ct781-50Cde-3194-BB3B-136BAD58D_CBE58BDE58B3BD58B3b-13D58BD58b Andisoze ndiyeke ukuzama ukuba ngumbhali oyingcali (ukusukela nge-8 kaDisemba 2017- ngoku). Ngaphandle kwayo yonke imiceli mngeni endiye ndanayo nendiya kuqhubeka ndinayo. Ukuba ekugqibeleni bendiziincwadi zam kunye neencwadi zam kuphela, ndiya konwaba ukuba ndim kwaye ndihlala ndinyanisekile kum. "
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_CC781905-5-5-5-5- I-3194-BB3B-136BAD58BD58B3BD58BD58BD58BD58b Ndicinga ukuba abantu abaninzi banokuphupha nje: ukufumana ulonwabo ngaphandle kokukhathalela imali okanye udumo. Abanye abantu bafuna zombini, okanye enye okanye enye. Ndithi, ngubani owenza i-crap? Isityebi, esidumileyo, okanye hayi, ubuncinci ndiya kuba ndim kwaye ndihlale ngenxa yokuba andithandi ukuba ngumntu endingenguye, kwaye ngokombono wam, ukuzama ukuba ngumntu ongenguye yiklasi A "inkohliso." Ndiyazi; Ndiye ndehla ngala ndlela yokuzama ukuzitshintsha ukuze umntu azame ukuba andithande ngaphezu komhlobo. Leyo yaba yeyona mpazamo inkulu endakha ndayenza ebomini bam. Ndiyazisola yonke imihla kwaye ndicamngca ukuba ngekwenzeke ntoni ukuba andizange ndehle ngaloo ndlela. Ndisayiphonononga kude kube ngoku apha naphaya, kodwa andisavumeli ukuba ibe nefuthe kubomi bam. Ngaphaya koko, ndiye ndanobudlelwane obune kuphela. Ukongeza, andikayifumani echanekileyo kwaye ndisamlindile. Andazi ngawe, kodwa ndiyakholelwa kwindlela yakudala. Ndingathanda ukuba ngabahlobo nomntu ukuba ndiphuhlise unxibelelwano lomntu nomntu, hayi nje le nto yokufumana intombi crap. Ngaphaya koko, ndinemigangatho ephezulu kakhulu yokuba ndiyithathele ingqalelo. Yonke le nto iqala ngokuba ngabahlobo kuqala, ndibone ukuba uthixo uzondinika na, nentombazana endinganomdla kuyo ngela xesha, intsikelelo yakhe yokwenza oko njengoko izinto zisenzeka ngexesha likathixo hayi ixesha lam. Inxalenye elusizi kukuba, ayisoze yenzeke, kodwa i-hop isekhona, nangona ityhafile okwangoku, kwaye ngokuqinisekileyo, ndilungile ngayo, okwangoku. Ndide ndidibane naye, ndizakuqhubeka nokuziphucula kwaye ndiqhubeke ndizama ukuba ngoyena MNA ndinokuba nguye ngoba yiyo yonke into endinokuyenza.

_ct781905-5-5-5- I-3194-BB3B-136Bad58b.ct78b35b.ct78B3bUkusukela nge-18 kaFebruwari 2018, anditshatanga kwaye ndichasene kakhulu nokuthandana ngaphandle kokuba uthixo ebona ngenye indlela. Andikhange ndikhangele okanye ndiphume endleleni yam ukuze ndiyifumane. Ukuba intombi iyenzeka, kwenzeka ngobabalo lukaThixo kwaye akukho ngaphantsi. Emva kokuba u-ex wam endophule intliziyo echithe iiveki ezi-2 esenza i-handmade ifoto yesilayidi ividiyo yoSuku lweValentine ngenxa yokuba wawungenamali yokumthengela iitshokolethi kunye/okanye iirozi, kwaye wophula intliziyo yakho kwiintsuku ezi-4 emva kweholide, awunamdla kangako wokuthandana. Kwaye ukuba loo nto yayingeyongxaki kwikeyiki, uye wandisa enkundleni malunga nezinto ezichasene nesimilo sam kwaye eyona nto ndiyiyo usapho kunye nabahlobo bayazi ayindim. Ngeendlela ezingenakubalwa, ndiyamcaphukela, andizukuxoka, kwaye ndiyazi ukuba akunjaloy UmKristu uthanda, kodwa ngeendlela ezininzi, esifana nesi sehlo sasecaweni nale ntwazana, iye yandikhupha kwingxaki enokonakala kakhulu. Ngaba amathuba okuba phezulu ngokwaneleyo ukuba kwenzeke kwakhona ngendlela efanayo njengoko kwenzekayo phakathi ex yam kunye nam, hayi, hayi kancinci. Ngaba yayikukusabela kwamadolo kunye nentombazana evela ecaweni ukuba iqhawule lonke unxibelelwano, ngokupheleleyo, kodwa ubuncinci akukho zingxaki ziqhubekayo kunye nezityholo zibhabha malunga nomcimbi ohleli kwi-limbo ondiqhuba ngokungafihlisiyo kuba andikwazi. yilungise kuba ngokobuchwephesha kukuhamba kwakhe ngobabalo lukaThixo. Nokuba siba ngabahlobo emva koko kuthixo, ndiya konwaba nje ukuba ndiza kuba nenye into emagxeni am esonjululweyo.

_CC781905-5-5-5-5- I-3194-BB3B-136BADD58BD58BD58B3BD58BD58B3bNdizibuyisela esikolweni ngokusesikweni. Kukho isivumelwano esihle kakhulu kwiincwadi ze-13 kwi-Humble Bundle ebandakanya i-Unreal Engine 5. Ewe, uyaqikelela ukuba, ndiya kuzifundisa ukwenza imidlalo ye-PC. Ndinalo mdlalo endifuna ukuwenza, sisinyanzeliso esikhulu kwaye ndiyazi ukuba mandiqale ngaphi, kodwa nangona ndizifundise i-Unreal Engine, ndifuna izakhono ezingcono ukuze yenzeke. Ngamafutshane, ngumdlalo weMassive Multi player ukuzisa zonke iinkalo zobomi kumdlalo. Umzekelo, ukuba ufuna ukwenza isibhengezo seNkululeko kwaye uphathe iqumrhu elilawulayo njengobomi bokwenyani, ngoko unokuba ngumongameli emva kokuqhubela phambili iminyaka ukusuka ekuqaleni njenge-caveman / umfazi. Ngumdlalo owenzelwe ukuxelela ubomi beplanethi yomhlaba ngelixa uzisa phantse zonke iintlobo zomdlalo kumdlalo omnye. Kwisiseko sayo iya kuba sisifaniso kodwa ngezinto ezinje ngeSim City mechanics, Farming Simulator mechanics, Flight Simulator mechanics, The Sims, kunye nenkqubo yendawo egcwele ngokupheleleyo efana ne-EVE kunye neeNjineli zeNdawo ezinoomatshini bophando abavela kwinkqubo yendawo yeKerbal kunye nokukwazi Ngenene yila inqanawa yakho kunye/okanye isiseko kanye ngendlela ofuna ngayo, ezantsi ukuya kwindlela iipaseji ezibekwe ngayo. Ukuba unokuthelekelela, ungayakha, kwaye EMININGI neminye imizekelo njengoko IMININGI kakhulu ukuba ungayibala kwaye uyithethe. Yindawo apho unokuba nabani na ofuna ukuba nguye kwaye ngokusisiseko lilizwe apho unokudlala nabahlobo, okanye wedwa ngenkqubo ye-AI egcweleyo. Nokuba ucinga ukuyenza ngolu hlobo, unokufumana imali yokwenyani ngokudlala umdlalo njengeqela lemidlalo esele inalo eli nqaku, njenge-Entropia Universe kunye nabanye abaninzi. Ukuba isicwangciso sam sisebenza ngendlela endifuna ukuyenza ngayo, iya kutshintsha yonke imboni yemidlalo njengoko sisazi kuba iya kuba ngumdlalo OKUNINGI kuwo kwaye unokwenza nantoni na ofuna ukuyenza ukuze udidi olutsha lube iyilwe NJE ukuze ikwazi ukusingatha le projekthi inkulu.

Igama lalo mdlalo libizwa ngokoqobo, "Iprojekthi: Ubomi Bamaphupha" kunye nesaci esithi, "Ukuba uyakwazi ukuphupha, yenze, njengoko amaphupha ezaliseka. Amaphupha ayenzeka ukuba uyawenza enzeke. Amaphupha yiloo nto uyenzayo ngabo.” Igama lomdlalo: Ilungelo lokushicilela lika-2023-Ngoku